Wasted

Do you believe in signs? Do you rely yourself on signs and wasting your life on waiting for your signs to happen? When you need to do something you will ask for a sign and look for it in a certain number of days you set. Well, you’re wasting your time or should I say you’re wasting your life cause been there done that.

Lets say in love. You will pray “Lord give me three signs (and you will ennumerate them) if I should give him up or I will fight for him.” and after 3 days there’s no sign appeared or only 1 sign appeared. You will pray again “Lord another 3 days please,” You’re wasting your time. The joke is on you.Don’t be a fool. If your love is not meant to be you need to accept it and let go. Dont push yourself on something you cannot have or on someone doesnt fit you stop being immature, stop acting like a child.

If its meant to be it will be. Just wait and pray for the right time. Don’t push hard. Pray hard. If its not meant to be don’t hold for it. Look for someone, or you need to love yourself first and of course you need to grow up!

Don’t wait for a sign Wait for the right person on the right time he/she will come to your way eventually just pray  hard and harder. 🙂

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Shattered..

People say that “Promises are made to be broken.” Or “Promises are meant to be broken.” Yes. I was a victim of a promise.

We promised each other that we will wait until the right time comes and while waiting we will stay, we will hold on in each other’s hand. We used to thinkthat one day we will be happy together. He promised me that, that day will come and all the things we wish, will happen.

I hold on unto that. I even told my friends about that even though at the back of mind there’s a doubt and I’m telling myself not to put my whole trust on something that not permanent or on someone that I do not own. But I disregard that thought I hoped that one day someday we will be together. We will be happy without hindrances. We will conquer all together.

He promised me that our time will come. We just need to wait. Yeah, I foolishly believed. And at the end of the day all that promises disappered. All the hopes broke down and the faith is gone. He left me without any words. He left me clueless like before. I hate my self for believing him and for holding on to his promises.

I even hate myself for depending on him. Screw me. I am too fool or should I say to inlove to believe. Today, I will not hold unto something that isn’t permanent toavoid heartaches

Living the s i n g l e life.

We will love to live a single life when you experienced too much pain. Pain that you cannot bear. 

You will tell yourself that do not fall in love again.. Don’t rush things, your time will come out through your way. Perfect relationship is equals to the right person at the right time.

You will know the things you want and the things you don’t want in a relationship. You will complete yourself. You will fix yourself. You can handle things right and you will be more matured.

Give your heart a break.. 🙂

F R E E D O M

Awwwwwh

Precious jeremy

I know that it is imposible for us to be together again. I don’t have the right to complain because I am the one who pushed you away. I don’t have the right to tell you that I am broken, that I am not okay.

Its been a year, but my feelings for you never changed. My love for you is still the same. I still long for you I want to be with you. I want to hold your hand and tell the world how lucky I am because I got myself a guy like you. You are one in a million. But we both know that will not happen again.

Now Im setting you free. I am now giving you the freedom to live your life. I know you can survive each day without me. I know how strong you are. You can breath carelessly, you can manage…

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F R E E D O M

I know that it is imposible for us to be together again. I don’t have the right to complain because I am the one who pushed you away. I don’t have the right to tell you that I am broken, that I am not okay.

Its been a year, but my feelings for you never changed. My love for you is still the same. I still long for you I want to be with you. I want to hold your hand and tell the world how lucky I am because I got myself a guy like you. You are one in a million. But we both know that will not happen again.

Now Im setting you free. I am now giving you the freedom to live your life. I know you can survive each day without me. I know how strong you are. You can breath carelessly, you can manage to smile and get along with others like nothing happed. I thanked God because you’re strong. Sorry because I am not strong like you but I guarantee you that I can live my life too and move on.

I will not forget all the memories we shared because that is all I have. Memories will never change. The picture of you and me together are always there.

Untold feelings…

 

I love you more than how you love me. I want to be with you every minute of my life, I want to spend my eternity with you. I know I never told you this words to express my praise and love. 

You always feel that you’re nothing to me. I am sorry for making you feel that way. Sorry for all the efforts that I didn’t noticed. Sorry for making you feel useless and left most of the time. I am also sorry for not talking to you and ignoring you. I never planned to hurt you that way. Seriously, I don’t know. That just happened. In a blink, in a split second. I don’t want you to feel that you’re a nobody. Because you are all to me. You are. Sorry for all the shits that I gave to you. 

 

Thank you. Thank you because you came to my life. You never left my side. Thank you for being there turning upside down with me when the world turns upside down. Thank you for letting me to enter your life. Thank you for letting me to love and care for you. This words are not enough to thank you, but I am here typing this blog to express how happy and grateful I am because I met you. You’re a blessing! Indeed. Thank you for allowing me to live my life while you’re busy loving me. You never give up on me.

 

I want you to know that I am blessed because I had you. You came to my life and unknowingly I welcomed you. I let you love me and I will be forever grateful beacuse you did. We’re not together now because of what happened. But don’t you think that will be a part to make our happy ending more sweeter and happier? 🙂

To the man I loved the most, to the guy who never failed to make me feel special. I love you. Maybe this is not our time, but I believe that our time will come to our ways eventually. The right time. You left my heart an empty hole that no one can fill, only you. 

 

I don’t know why I’m still typing this blog. What is the point of this if we had our own ways. You’re happy  with her. This words can’t bring you back. I don’t know. I want to lessen the pain and the burdens that I’m feeling inside. 

 

You will be my number one, always! ❤

My fault, not his.

“kailangan na natin mag move on akala ko wala na talaga, sana pala pinaglaban ko. Hindi ko alam na naghihintay ka pala. Kung alam ko lang…

His last words that made my heart aches, big big time. I was left behind. He left me, clueless and hanging. 

He make me believe that I am the only one. I did, yes I did. Though, his actions makes me sick. He failed to talk to me, oh what a coward. We never had a great conversations, we never held hands, we never hug and kiss each other. Ugh. Yes, we talked, but that was when I asked him to stay away from me. I saw the precious tears left his eyes. I managed to hold his hands with my cold and trembling hands.

Everytime he’s near I can feel the butterflies in my stomach. I can’t look at his eyes. I don’t know. I love him this much but yes I failed to show him too. My fault, not his. But what can I do?! I want to hold him, but my body can’t! Traitor hands. 

Love, I am always here for you though you already found your girl. You did to her the things I wanted you to do, for me. 

You make me feel special and loved. 

Let us move on. Nothing will happen if we dwell on the past and always feelin’ sorry for the things we supposed to do. But I promise you, even though we had our closure already I am always here for you, no matter what.

 

I love you, goodbye.